Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Sometimes, The Rules are Meant to Be Broken...
- I will never have an affair.
- I will never cheat on my husband.
- I will never sleep with two men at the same time.
- I will never invite a lover into my own home..... and the list continued...
The thing is, I am having an affair and am cheating on my husband behind his back. I am sleeping with two men at the same time - maybe three if I include my husband. And I have invited my lover into my own home, numerous times. All these things were some things I thought I would never do - or swore to myself that I wouldn't do.
I guess you could never say never because I learned that from my own experiences that the rules are sometimes meant to be broken...
Hibernation
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
What's Up With the Ash Mad's Single Folks??
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
My Dalliance
Friday, October 9, 2009
It All Started With Second Kiss
Two weeks later, we met at a coffee shop and walked to the movie theatre. It's a movie date... We sat on the seats, pulled up the arm rest between us, so we could sit closer.
I felt that he was nervous again. I was so nervous that maybe he could hear my heartbeat. The movie began, but no sign of him initiating the contact. We were sitting in silence and I realized an hour had already passed without both of us touching each other. I was getting frustrated and getting anxious. Finally, I had to lean and whisper in his ear, "So, when are we going to make out? Or are we just going to see this movie and go home?"
Paul finally smiled and position himself towards me. I smiled and postioned myself towards him. "Hi there," I said. I saw his face getting close to me and finally, our lips met for the second time. Oh forget it, he had me at second kiss - his soft lips. It was so amazing. Then we kissed again and again. We couldn't stop kissing each other. Our lips, our tongues, our juices - we were both losing ourselves in the dark theatre like two kids in lust.
He once told me it starts with a kiss... He was right. It was the beginning of our sweet affair...
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Secret Dalliances
I have been thinking a lot about this Letterman scandal and how this news has affected me, causing me to think over my relationship. Letterman is my favorite late night talk show host and I fully give him the credit for coming clean and even trying to tell his embarrassing past with wit and humor.
But I know it's been hard for him and his family. The humiliation and the fear of losing everything - it's heartbreaking. Remember, when these dalliances occurred, he wasn't married to his wife - he was in the committed relationship with her. Still, it wouldn't make it okay to cheat, would it?
But, let's not kid ourselves, it's me who's talking - the one who's having a secret dalliance myself. So my thinking is this; what would I do, if someone was to reveal my relationship with Paul (my lover) - Would I be able to act as honorably as Letterman, give my spouse a sincere apology and try to fix the problems at home front or would I run away from everything?
Letterman is a public figure, so he has no choice, but to make everything public. I still think he acted with dignity and I must tell ya', he's funny. I know that being the wife of a celebrity it is hard enough to go through this type of scandal, but if you're not a politician or a celebrity, then this is just another story of infidelity. I think things would be even uglier and more complicated for us ordinary people..
The only thing for sure is when a secret dalliance is revealed; it will either break your marriage or strengthen it. And I hope my case would be the latter - I surely hope so.
Friday, October 2, 2009
My New Journey
Then I met my knight in shining armour. And he changed my life. He made me realize I am still a woman, that I'm beautiful and still got it.
The relationship I have with my lover is not all rosey and dreamy things, but I can honestly say that I'm lucky, so damn lucky. And I want to remember everything; the sweet nibbles in the beatufiul afternoon in the hotel room, or warm embrace in the shower, or passionate kisses in the car, or laughter in bed under the white sheets. I don't want to forget it. That's why I decided to start my blog. This blog is my memoirs of infidelity; past, present and future - and the place where I can be me....